I am feeling an itch; an itch I can't seem to scratch. (and it isn't a mosquito bite, though I have some of those as well!)
"let's do coffee," a friend suggested. I am sure that I rolled my eyes, coffee? I am a bit tired of coffee. Every morning I stop and get coffee on my way to work. I ponder what I will order, surprising myself with my selection from time to time. But do I want coffee? Not really. I stop out of the habit of stopping. It is part of my morning routine.
It isn't just the coffee. It is everything. My life has become a very predictable routine.
"Can we do bagels or tea instead?" I asked thinking that this would force me to get out of the box just a tad. I anticipated finding a tea shop or picking up bagels at a new and inspired shop. Instead, we went to a bagel shop next to the morning Starbucks. We went to the same bagel shop I always frequent and picked up the same tea I get every weekend. *sigh*
I am feeling the need for change; a strong desire for an adventure. I have that "itch" and I am having a hard time scratching it.
I want to say that there is change coming. A friend just wrote from Switzerland saying that she is coming for a visit in July. There is a great road trip and some beach time in my very near future. These are welcome breaks to the monotony and the routine that I have come to find a bit frustrating. But they are not solutions or permanent changes.
My soul is restless. I am feeling the need to change and yet am not under the impression that transition is coming any time soon.
Maybe it is not change I need but... a surprise? Maybe I need to take a side road, turn down a different path, move from this road less traveled to another road less traveled? Maybe I need a weekend get away filled with passion and romance? Perhaps I need to look into a crystal ball and see "You will meet a tall dark stranger (or blond, I am not picky)" or even "Great intrigue and mystery are in your near future!" I need to push the envelope and try something new!
I need to find a means of scratching this itch - and soon!