Possibilities

Every once in a while something happens and... wow, I am stunned by the infinite possibilities. 

 

They are everywhere - shining as bright as the sun or twinkling like the distant stars.  They are bright and vivid or soft and pastel.  They dazzle my mind as it attempts to consider each and explore all that it has to offer. 

 

Such an experience leaves me feeling alive. 

 

I experienced such a high Monday.  Suddenly the window opened and the yellow brick road seemed to glow before me.  So many opportunities; so many possibilities.  Where should I begin!

 

Today I will make my way upstairs to chat with two women, who currently have my résumé, about "what I want to do?"

 

Wow!!  "What do I want to do?"

 

To me, this week, that seems like an amazing question.  There are so many things that I want to do; so many things that I can do now that I couldn't do a week ago.  Just so many possibilities!

 

I can return to my passion and first love - research and analysis.  Perhaps there will be a position that will allow me to study my favorite countries or maybe move into a more gray area of study.  I can hope that things are less politically slanted now, but perhaps that is asking too much!

 

Or maybe I could stay in a more management based position.  I enjoy working with teams, budgeting, editing, quality assurance...  I like the more flexible hours and the human interaction - even the debates and the brain storming that go hand-in-hand with the team leader position.  

 

Ah... so many choices... what do I "really" want to do?

 

How many times in our lives do we truly experience this feeling?  This feeling that the sky is the limit?  The door has just opened and there aren't any obstacles to be seen - we can reach for the stars, dream the impossible dream, and are free to feel the exhilaration that comes from knowing that, for this moment in time, the world is at our feet.  

 

I used to dream of being a top political adviser - providing well balanced analysis to the government upon which policy could be formed and decisions made.  I dreamed of leading a team of analysts that would consider all options, disregard any political influences domestically, and consider each situation with a working knowledge of the history, politics, and cultures of each country involved.  I wanted my team to be well known and well versed.  I wanted US policy to be founded and forward looking rather than a short term fix to the current problem.  

 

Simply stated, I wanted to revolutionize the way things are done!  I wanted to be innovative!  I never stopped to realize that things work quite differently in the real world  than I imagined when creating my dream job.  

 

But now... well now I know that things work differently.  I know that to do what I want, I need to play the game and observe the rules.  But I also know that my dream job might be a possibility rather than a "never happen" kind of job.  

 

I am very, extremely, can not find the words to express how, excited I am that right now, today, I will take the next step toward change; toward possibility and opportunity.  

 

What a feeling...I can have it all... I can make it happen