If you could go back in time and change something, what would you change?
This is one of those questions that is often asked in different types of groups. I have had to answer it various times, and my answer is consistently the same. I would change nothing.
“Not even something very small?”
Not even the most miniscule of things.
I would not change the travel, the people, the happiness or even the heart ache.
The pain and sorrow and struggles and humiliation… I would keep it all.
I would not change the people with whom I rode in a train carriage or an elevator. I would not change the drink I had with dinner in 1975. I would not change a thing.
To change even the smallest of details is to change the person I am or to risk making that change. My life would be different – it would have different challenges and different experiences. And I would probably love it as much as I love the life I live now, but that’s just it. I love the life I live now!
And no, this isn’t to say that my life is easy.
It isn’t to say that I am happy all, of, the, time.
It isn’t to say that there are days when I see more gray and shadow than I see sunlight and brightness.
It is simply to say that I love my life. I love the experiences I have had and those I find daily. I love the lessons that I have learned and even the challenges I have faced in learning them. And the people who have entered my life, touched my life, or left my life… I love all of them too though I might not like the situations or circumstances.
Every little detail, each bold stroke of the paint brush, all the choices I made and didn’t make…I love them all for the person that I am and the life that I currently live.
Would I change my life?
No... There are risks I am willing to take – but going back in time to change this or that is not one of them!
This is my life to live… and I am thrilled to have the chance to learn and grow and share it and live it…