Today I learned that there is a spot on my dad’s lower back that was discovered by a bone scan. We don’t know if the cancer has spread; we only know that our spirits are high and we are ready for whatever happens next.
Last year I watched the Bucket List. I am a huge Morgan Freeman fan and will watch just about anything he has filmed. I watched the movie and cried. And I thought about writing a Bucket List.
And I have yet to write that list.
I am not sure that I will ever write it as I wonder if… well, if it is necessary?
It is nice to go through and find the things we want to do at some point in our lives; the places we want to go and the things we want to do. But, I wonder if the trick, for me, is remembering to live to the fullest every day?
In other words, there are places that I want to go for the first time and things I want to do and see. There are places I want to visit a new because I have been there before and have loved that first experience and want to experience them again in a different way.
There are things I want to try…
And yet, my life is complete if I don’t do any of the things mentioned above.
My life is complete when I have said my peace.
Perhaps my Bucket List is more about ensuring that the people I love know that I love them.
And that my daughter realizes, without doubt, that she is responsible for her own choices, not those of her father or me.
And that I have laughed at least once a day… a real laugh
And that I have taken every opportunity presented, each day, to give of myself and to myself… love.
And that I have lived with integrity… true to myself
That I have turned my back on the chances to sell myself or live by the rules of another or under the expectations of another or society… I have lived as honestly and openly as possible.
I love the idea of a Bucket List as it makes one more aware of the adventures that are out there to be experienced and the wonders of life that they want to try…
But for me, for right now, the wonders of life are in my heart, my neighborhood, in my friends, and in my family.